All I do is want to make you happy While i know I should make me happy too I just... I don't know what's wise Now just everything good Hurts afterwards Every nice day or date Afterwards I'm such a mess Often even during I don't want to For you, but also me It's such a conflict I like you, I like this I'm just so scared It's not gonna work. That it's not getting better. Even though everything tells me otherwise. Maybe I'm just scared for next week. The classes, the weekend w my parents, The too many things I have to do Which I don't know about yet Maybe we should pause.  To see if I have energy left, After school and other socials. And also maybe to give my mind some space To just run and maybe let some puzzlepieces fall into place.  I'm sorry

I feel like I'm a broken record Always tired, or overwhelmed, Day in, day out There's always something, Then there's pain, other times my mind  goes just crazy or I'm restless I really want to be more healthily balanced Not only for me, But also for people who are close I feel like I'm a burden, Only adding more work While I would love to reduce it To enjoy it I wish everything was just a little clearer And what I need and actually can handle Finally just completely overlap

 It's all so nice Yet my body is refusing so hard my mindcircles too to just be able to deal with it.  a simple kiss I really really want to but I can't shouldn't.  You say that you don't mind but even if that is the case,  you deserve so much more I'm afraid it just is how it is, and we just need to take a small step back.  I thought it was worth it,  but no, I notice my mind not being healthy I'm sorry. I should've said something earlier I guess I just got lost in your eyes

I've never thought  I'd be here Just the sight of your face Makes me wondering How, why, no you can't be true Only the look in your eyes Almost makes me cry Wish I could see myself through them I'm trying so hard To just accept it I just can't I need time I've never felt as safe As with you You push and pull but With such care You're better for me than Maybe I can ever be for myself I just hope Am so scared That's just for the wrong reasons That I'm just selfish I just don't know. Nothing So I try just to enjoy the now