hopeful eyes

I've never thought 

I'd be here

Just the sight of your face

Makes me wondering

How, why, no you can't be true

Only the look in your eyes

Almost makes me cry

Wish I could see myself through them

I'm trying so hard

To just accept it

I just can't

I need time

I've never felt as safe

As with you

You push and pull but

With such care

You're better for me than

Maybe I can ever be for myself

I just hope

Am so scared

That's just for the wrong reasons

That I'm just selfish

I just don't know.

Nothing

So I try just to enjoy the now