I want to cry But it only makes me sadder I want to scream But it only makes me more mad Mad at myself Mad at my inability to accept myself Sad about all the lost time I couldnt motivate myself Lost in the maze of now, the past and the future The wants and the what ifs Of wanting to let go, But can't  When i feel like this It feels like its never going to end I know exactly what happens but have no solution 'Just learn to deal with it Just learn to live with it' I just can't  I cant explain Just feel Intense anxiety For nothing in particular  And then i think about why i am anxious When I find nothing I automatically fill it in With the most random things That's why I enjoy almost nothing Everything Becomes a weak point Dangerous Not good enough I just wish I was something different I just wish I was someone different