I feel like a string, being pulled, Shivering every second I'm being touched No relief No relaxation Getting higher Until I Break

Thought patterns can be like drugs Once you're hooked it's so hard to get rid of Addicting, constantly bugging And in the end you really want to stop But also so different Some can be disguised as defencemechanisms So there's all these lies That are so real And it is isolating Distanced as you feel Selfworth deflating   So similar yet something else Both way too shitty To even exist  And yes. I confess I am addicted to some thought patterns