It's better to lose your sense of time,  Then to cling onto it. Better enjoy every moment  Than be the most productive you can be Better fill your time with things you love Than things you think you are supposed to do

Days like this It's so hard not to hate myself. The whole day I've been trying to be nice to myself Trying to find stuff I'll get at least a bit of happiness out of It works for a while. Quite long even today I had enough energy and no responsibilities,  That helps a lot But now, I'm crashing hard I feel like how I felt when I was a teen Hopeless Sinking into a dark pit No way out, And I rather don't drag others with me So I close myself off But it's not good I'll just drown in selfpity,  While nobody knows what's going on. But it's so useless I hate it so much I start hating myself, again And wonder, was all this worth it