caught in myself
Somewhere I'm very frustrated
Maybe it's the two night of terrifying nightmares
But I want to feel
Something
I want to hurt
It's so hard not to fall into old habits
This weekend is maybe gonna be hell
The stomach pain
The tension through my whole fucking body
Being trapped in the world, the systems, ideas, myself
Caught in myself
I thought I was doing better
I am doing better
It's just back again. I'll survive.
I just hope I don't lose almost everyone around me
Because it makes me such a bore
As I look at yourself and all I can see,
ReplyDeleteis beauty and greatness,
and all those things you can be,
As I read the fights, the worries, the battles,
happening all again, all over, in circles,
I see then myself and my own struggles,
As I feel your fear to be left alone,
knowing how our brains can being vicious,
making us tormented with the terryfing unknown,
I want then to remind you, my dear, mon amie,
on a delightful note, that, you've for a friend in me,
No matter how worried, hurt, in distress you might be,
For you, my door won't shut,
and that's my guarantee.