anxiety

Having anxiety is living in a completely different world

Protecting yourself, 

Seeing everyone and everything as a threat

Even if something has not even happened yet

Or might never even happen

It might not even be possible.

Going back and forth on it is draining

Sometimes I don't even notice directly

It's a different way of thinking

Subconscious, most of it you don't even have influence on

One thing that's usually why I notice,

I get very negative on myself

My appearance or actions

I'm glad I don't live this anymore

Not everyday. Just... Sometimes