dreams staying dreams

I've never thought id get so far.

To actually become an adult

I now say I have hardly any dreams

But that's because the dream I had,

Is way too dark

I think I'm glad it didn't come true

Still, I'm not used to this

To this great place I'm at

I keep doubting myself,

Over and over, 

Wishing I was further,

More courageous.

Although, I'd never thought I'd get this far

I keep wishing for more

And that's just unfair

To others but mostly to myself.

I guess I'm just not ready yet

To be brave enough

To know what I feel 

Maybe it's better this dream stays a dream too.