my brain is a liar

I know you care.

At least I knew a few weeks back,

when I saw you, when I hugged you last.

You told me you cared and would be there.

Just in a few weeks

This feeling is gone, 

Something keeps telling me

Not even to hold on

To forget about all the good

The care and the love

Because who spoke to you

Who tried to stay in contact?

I know it's a few, but yet

My fucked up mind shapes it

Like nobody cares

And fishes up all reasons why they wouldn't

Why I'm not worth that.

I'm trying to keep them away, 

Because I know it's lies

It's just now holding on for so long

That I'm afraid I'm going to believe it...